Sometimes. [100210]

you know, sometimes, i can't believe i ever liked you. sometimes, i can't believe that you made me fall for your stupid ways. sometimes, i can't believe i thought you actually cared about me. sometimes, i can't believe i thought you actually FELT the same way about me. sometimes, i can't believe i thought you even had EMOTIONS. sometimes, i can't believe to think that we might've had something.

sometimes, i can't believe i put effort into nothing when i thought deep down i was putting effort into something. absolutely blinded.. or maybe juss selective on what i want to feel & see & believe. selective on certain parts of the truth. selective on things about you. all i saw were the "good" things. when clearly the cons overshadowed your pros. i should've been more careful, listened to what they said. but no, i'm a stubborn child & refuse to let any of that be the reason of what i do. i needed to experience the pain & hurt myself, the ones that i'm gonna feel many times in the future. even though that shouldn't happen.

sometimes, i can't believe any guy would ever want to talk to me. i'm juss jenny. a 16 year old girl with a wild mind of her own. i'm not the prettiest crayon in the 64 pack with the cool sharpener.. but i'm more reliable & i guarantee you that i got charisma & personality. but whatever makes you choose her over me is up to you. sometimes, i can't have everything i want. it kinda sucks, but that's how life is.

sometimes, i still think about you.
sometimes, i wish you'd get out of my mind so i can think peacefully.
sometimes, i want to cry & ask why did you do that to me.

sometimes, that isn't enough.

-jenn-tacular;

"Cus you're the cigarette. & I'm the smoker."

-Miguel Jontel