Relations, Not Relationships. [022710]

maritza's 16 later on today, now that's whassup.

it's amazing how people change over time, even if it's unintentional. it's amazing how people can be such a different person from when you first met them. i juss hope that one day things get back onto good terms. i never meant to hurt you. & in the end i guess i did. giving you headaches & stress. i don't mean it, i really don't. & yerr close to me, i consider you a major impact in my life. so i'd hate to see the day that we drift apart with me sitting at home with a half gallon of mint chocolate chip ice cream crying & watching some lovesick movie. i'd hate to see the day you walk outta my life as if you were walkin' the red carpet. i mean life isn't fair, yes we all know this, but there are juss some things you wanna be selfish about & keep. can i juss say one of those things is you?

relations. not relationships. i mean if yerr all for a relationship, go for it, have fun & give that other person all the love you can give. but if yerr not that type of person. then go all for relations. don't put yerrself through relationship problems if it's not yerr thing. it's understandable to not want to commit.

wondering how life's gonna be as soon as another year ends & starts. question yerrself, what have we all become? if you were to meet yerrself today, would you even know who you are?

-jenn-tacular;

"I call them April babies, because they fools."

-Lil Wayne

Today I Was The Ballgirl. [021710]

hahahaha, that was so funny. i got handle balls the whole game. but damn did they make me run.

so today what's on my mind is that, why people ask you some but in the end they act like they don't give a fuck. if yerr gonna ask me some, and in the end so oh cool or oh that's nice, then don't fuckin' ask. simple. i hate how when i ask people some i actually try & talk about the subject. but when they ask me, they're juss like oh that's nice. oh cool. don't fuckin' ask me some if yerr gonna juss be sayin' that. unless you got a good reason like, yerr dog died or i ate yerr dog or some. i also hate it when people change the subject on me. don't ignore what i say. don't act like you didn't hear what i said. if you don't wanna talk about it. i'll drop it. juss say you don't wanna talk about it & we're fine, i'll drop it right there. is that so hard?!

-jenn-tacular;

"Turn me on with your electric feel."

-MGMT

I'm So Damn Frustrated. [021310]

happy anti-valentine's day btw.

seein' all the valentine's stuff yesterday at school made me kinda sick, it's bad enough that i'm jealous of people who are capable to love, but havin' them show off as well made me juss wanna take all that stuff & burn it. all the huge 'i love you' bears & all the flowers & chocolates. it's not like i'ma have a valentine this year. i never so why should i look forward to it? at least chinese new year's is tmrw. money is all i'm lookin' forward to righ now. juss the money i guess.

& plus the fact that i'm so frustrated at the world. everything i come in contact with pisses me off in way or another. sometimes people can't even understand the most simplest shit that i say & it makes me mad. i guess i'm frustrated from being frustrated. uhm.. did that make sense?

& then there's all these guys that are juss bringin' me down. unintentionally of course. but still it's tirin' havin' to drag them around too, i can't sleep well & that's all that's ever on my mind, juss all those guys, & yes i'm aware that it makes me sound like a hoe, but i call it keepin' my options open. sometimes i wish guys weren't so hard to figure out, like a 1000 piece puzzle, i got some pieces connected, but most of em aren't.

also, why does everyone's gf have a problem with me? what the fuck did i ever do to them? i never did shit & they're all over here talkin' shit about me, throwin' me dirty looks, all cus i talk to their man? i don't even talk to them in that way so i don't see why they trippin' & callin' me a damn hoe or bitch. i'm tired of havin' problems with females that i never did anythin' to.

all these things causin' me stress. friends, family, school, guys. i guess it's juss my lifestyle to be busy & occupied & stressed. i juss wanna go cry.

-jenn-tacular;

"How can something so familiar be so strange?"

-Timbaland

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I Miss What I Never Had. [020610]

don't you juss hate it when you and a person have a.. "thing". and then like you guys talk everyday. and you guys had long phone conversations and juss talked about whatever. and sometimes even confided in each other. and then the other person acts like you guys had nothing? like nothing ever happened between you two and they juss act like yerr none and that yerr not even SOMETHING to them anymore. like as if they think you've served yerr purpose and they don't want anything to do with you anymore. and every time you try, it juss doesn't WORK!? yet you miss the times you had with them. whatever times you had. you miss the simplest things. and you miss when they would make you mad but knowing yerrself you couldn't stay mad at them. but you would act mad cus they would do the little sweetest things that made your heart smile. and now they act like yerr none to em. and it's the worst. but the worst part is, they were never yours to begin with.

-jenn-tacular;

"We coulda worked it out, but uh I guess things change."

-Drake