i'm simply a 16 year old girl trying to get somewhere in life. i've got quite a mind i've been told. i may not post as much as i'd like to but there's always something worth reading on here, guaranteed.

Thursday, December 31, 2009

New Year's Eve. [123109]

so today is new year's eve and man, it's been quite a year. earlier i watched a video by timothydelaghetto [http://www.youtube.com/timothydelaghetto2] and it was his new video on this year. he's right.. 2009 might not have been the best year. but it was more of a growth period. i developed and grew as jenny, and i'm actually happy with who i am now. i'm satisfied with who i am and all that matters is NOW. who makes me happy NOW. what makes me happy NOW. there's not point in dwelling in the past and being miserable about it as well.
so a recap of a 2009 for me..

january - i started talking to an incredible guy. he should know who he is if he ever reads this. that month really made me happy. :) especially the 12th. that was a good day. but i don't remember my new year's resolution..
february - chinese new year & my ma's birthday. that was bad cus i forgot my ma's birthday. that wasn't a good idea. i really have to owe it up to her in 2010. but chinese new year was pretty good. firecrackers all night gave my ears an earache. haha. but i don't think i got that much money.
march - i hated this month. i absolutely hate being weak and crying. hard month. i learned from it though. :P
april - it was an okay month. on april fool's i remembered consuelo april fooled her parents haha. that was funny! my birthday was also at the end of the month, the 30th. i forgot what i did for my birthday.. i do remember consuelo got me some shirts though, thanks girl.
may - passed freshman year! thankmofuckingawhh. lol. i was gettin' ready for the summer! but then i decided to waste part of it away with summer classes lol.
june - summer classes. 2 hours of bcis. 2 hours of health. 2 hours of gym. killer. but at least i had people to talk to in each class. i had fun in each class too. bcis was easy, i am a fast typer haa. health kinda sucked cus the teacher was always getting on my nerves and picked on me a lot. damn teacher. gym was alright, i had it with virginia. and man do i love that little shorty. haha. we got really close the months passing. i also started getting close to angel. and jossy as well. started drifting from my best homegirl consuelo. that wasn't cool of me. went on the metro a lot. good experience for me. :)
july - summer classes were ending! thank gawhh. got close to angel through texting haha. bestfriend he currently is. and well i can't really recall what happened in july.. oh wait. near the end of july, i got asked out by that guy. i was the happiest girl in the world.
august - he broke up with me. but it was my fault.. i was always such a whiny bitch. but you know what? he taught me to be stronger, more independent, and he taught me many things. so it's bittersweet. i'm real thankful i met him though. classes started again on the 24th? or 25th? sophomore year. man. it was nice to see everyone again. my schedule was messed up though. ugh.
september - my brother's birthday was on the 5th. i can't recall how many times i've slept in chuck e cheese's now haha. but we were getting into our classes. and homecoming was also this month! i went to go for some people [some football players, especially glenn! :D] and ohmaaan. haha. it was fun!
october - i remember halloween! wait no i don't. hahaha. what did i do this month? it's a blur.
november - hmmm, thanksgiving.. i didn't get my potatoes. haha.
decemeber - birthdays & christmas. how damn stressful! lol. but i managed to get money to buy people the things i wanted to buy them. i hope they really do appreciate it though. you guys know who you are.

and now as this month & year is closing to an end.. i've realized i've grown over the past years. i'm someone now. i'm not juss another girl. i'm JENNY. and you best recognize that. i've met many great people this year. :) and i've been inspired & have inspired. i broke down quite a few times & had heartache. i had friendships built & disintegrate. i had boys come & go. i had friends come & go. some still in my life. others not so much. i grew stronger & evolved into the person i am today. i quite like it up here, care to join? you will as soon as you find out exactly you have become to be. :) i've learned to appreciate & found out what it was like to be appreciated. i've argued & screamed. i've cried & made people cry. i've been bitched at & i've bitched. i've drifted & got close to people. this year was one hell of a roller coaster. but i do have to admit. it's been memorable. and that's what counts. i've found parts of myself. and i've yet to find more. but that's what 2010 will hold for me. it's going to be a good year. i know it will. it's going to be a good year cus i'm gonna pursue what i wanna do. and i'm gonna reach my goals even more this year. yeah i wanna be famous. let's reach that a little more. yeah i wanna pursue a career in psychology. maybe be a therapist. or a counselor. yeah i wanna get a job at burger king. yeah i wanna get a car. and learn how to drive better. yeah i wanna travel to cali and visit. and i'm gonna do it all. juss you wait and see. this new year is to develop my personality even more. and live my life. 2010 here i come. are you ready? cus i sure am.

new years resolutions;
1. get my abs back. asap.
2. learn how to drive.
3. get a job.
4. pimp more. ha.

-jenn-tacular;

"One more time, we're gonna celebrate."
-Daft Punk

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Fries' Funeral & My Day. [123009]

today was fries' funeral.. man. it was my first funeral since i was little. the heels i went in killed my feet btw, haha. but besides that, i went with virginia and met up with gina there, fries' best friend. i'm stunned that he had to go so soon, but now he's not surrounded in a world full of problems and stress. another thing is that he's not in pain anymore.. which i'm glad for. i guess it's a bittersweet feeling cus i'm glad he's not in this fuckedup world we called earth, but he left so soon. a lot of people came to visit him today. and the pictures slideshow just brought memories to so many. fries also wore a superman shirt with the mexican flag as the colors of the 's'. haha, that made me laugh. they say he was called super beaner instead of superman. fries was an amazing person from what i've heard. and he deserved better. good people don't deserve to go at such an early age, he was only 18.

but this funeral really made me think.. what would i want my funeral to be like? the atmosphere of fries' funeral made me really sad.. i wouldn't want that at my funeral. i really do mean it when i say that cus i can't stand everyone crying.. it makes me sad to know that you know? i mean i understand if my family cries, but why my friends? i would rather they come up to my casket and say, "hey jenny! remember that time we __________! man good times right?!" when i say i really want you to party at my funeral, i mean it haha. and i wanna have an all silver casket.. and if i'm buried, i wanna be buried in a place that meant to a lot to me. or cremated and have my ashes in a museum or some! haha. yes i know, jenny you're crazy. but that's who i am right?

but besides that, after the funeral i learned how to drive again with pato lol. driving is fun.. i really can't wait to have my car and have a job! i'll be making $$$ and then if i had a car as well.. shit i don't think i'll ever be home! as you all might know already, i'm a very busy person. :) haha.
so i juss came back from kroger. got more eyeliner lol. that's it for now.

-jenn-tacular;

"Nobody said it was easy. Shameful for us to part."
-Coldplay

R.I.P Jose Ramirez [aka Fries]

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

formspring.me

Ask me ANYTHING. I mean it. http://formspring.me/jennydqnguyen

Beginning. [122909]

i juss thought that i would make a blogg for the hell of it! plus it's a new year almost a new year. so why not?! hopefully i can keep up to date with this blogging thing. i'll try to! well if you guys like my posts then i'll be motivated to keep going with this. :) this blog is gonna be my thoughts, vent center, and those times when you juss wanna write ya know? it's for you to get a taste of my mind. well that's it for today. :)

-jenn-tacular;

"In your brown eyes, you watched her go."
-Lady Gaga