lonely (adjective) affected with, characterized by, or causing a depressing feeling of being alone; lonesome.
after watching kanye west's runaway video, i absolutely fell in love with him over again. the video was so artistically beautiful. i got goosebumps, my spine tingled, my eyes cried from the beauty. my heart was touched. i haven't seen something so phenomenal in years. the video absolutely stole my heart.
"baby i got a plan, runaway as fast as you can." -kanye west.
why am i so lonely? is it the vulnerability that affects me so? my heart bleeds and pumps tears of pain knowing that i can't be yours, since you have a new girl. it's always been like this.. why couldn't i have been your "perfect girl?" why couldn't it have been me? i know we said if it was meant to be, it would happen. but can i really wait that long? i always thought we'd be like the movies. you know, fall in love & grow old together & live happily ever after.. but we all know lovesick fairy tales are juss imaginary stories. i wish i could believe in our make believe but it couldn't last.. too many obstacles that we couldn't jump over together. maybe we were juss unwilling to make a difference. i don't know what it is. but i always tend to be REJECTED.. indirectly & directly. you know me oh so well but you can't see that it hurts to know that you do & i can't even talk to you the same way i used to anymore.. past is past yeah, but that doesn't mean it can flood you with the amazing memories you once had..
i feel like sometimes i'm juss too independent, making me vulnerable to guys who have potential to have something with me.. maybe i juss want a guy who would complete that empty void where you should be.. but what can i do?
"waiting on you for so long, too many days since january.." -drake.
-jenn-tacular;
"runaway from it baby."
-kanye west
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