It Is Too Cold. [011010 & 011110]

well i forgot to write yesterday.. again.
so i don't really remember what happened.
hahahaha.

but yeah today.. my day was aiight. i had a coffee. it was like.. i dunno. to calm me down. i think i needed it. and well i was reallyyyyyyy smiley throughout the whole day cus i was on the phone with someone for 2 hours last night. (: i guess that really made my day today. but then.. i got reminded of some things from the past. and i know i always say i shouldn't dwell in the past. but i couldn't help it this time. i wanna cry so bad. and i dunno. i hope HE knows what tmrw is.. the 12th. i dunno why i'm even venting about it. why do i care if he remembers? i mean. it's not like i matter all that much anymore. we barely talk. i'm not completely over him. and well he has a new girl. why should i matter? i'm juss another ex in his collection.. you don't tell a girl she's the one and leave her. it hurts. a lot. i still hurt till this day. i wish i would really stop. sometimes i want it to juss go away. but it always comes back like a chronic disease. and well.. does it matter anymore? why should i even be thinking about it? why am i even writing about it. i'm so fuckin'.. stupid.

and what's with all these guys liking me?! can't i juss not have a guy all over my pussy? and some of my flirts too. some of em need to back off and give me my space.. and like. i dunno. why why why whyfsdljaflsktjh iowkfriwhtk3ltio234wufu34o0fji3wti3ojgi3jgio34hiogjiohgwjgio2hgt2jiltjgiqlkjg34l.

-jenn-tacular;

"I'm too attached my heart won't let me fall back. I got it bad, that's what you can call that."

-Bow Wow