Headaches. [010810 & 010910]

so right now i'm juss organizing my room with thumbtacks. putting thumbtacks on the wall and putting accessories up on the tacks. didn't write a blog yesterday cus i was too tired to. and it slipped my mind. i guess i had better things to do. did i? i can't remember.

but besides that, yesterday was an okay friday. it was really cold. that's about it. well right now, that's all i can remember. and today i went to the mall with glenn and gina and my brother. the thing with me taking my brother places, it tires me out. it makes me feel like an old woman who has to constantly take care of this big headed kid. and well we walked around the whooooooooole mall and baybrook never seemed so big. and i spent all my money on my brother. saw a lot of things i liked and well obviously can't have. so many things from forever21, zumiez, and some shoes stores. killed me to leave there knowing i spent all my money on stuff for my brother.. selfish much?

but i'm so tired right now. drake song has got me wondering like blahh. it's called little bit. remix he did. it says i'm a little bit in love with you.. and it juss makes me wonder. cus since i'm such a flirt and pimp. who the fuck will i ever fall in love with? i mean can't i ever juss have a guy.. and have no feelings with em? how many guys do i have a crush on right now at the same time? it's fucking painful and dumb. like why can't i ever juss be the decent girl i used to be with self-respect for myself? why do i have to be so.. i don't know the word to explain it.

and these constant headaches i keep having keep turning into migraines. my head pounds and throbs and i'm stressed and tired of all of it. i'm so.. tired.

-jenn-tacular;

"Hands down, I'm too proud for love. But with eyes shut, it's you I'm thinking of."

-Lykke Li