like with guys, i have no clue what to say to them anymore. i don't know if i digg them. i don't know if it's juss sex i want. i don't know if i actually feel for em. cus i've been fucked over, so that first cut cut me deep, cut me like surgery. scars & all came with it. so i don't know what to think when it comes down to guys anymore. i mean why try when all they're gonna do is hurt you. might as well not love at all.
when it comes to friends, i know it's always my fault. i don't try hard enough. then i don't feel bad.. but then i feel bad for not feeling bad in the first place. cus that's juss way too fucked up of me. i mean really? you couldn't feel bad for doing your close friends wrong? i guess the bad influence in me has gotten so bad that i don't know what the hell good is anymore. if there is any. i guess it's cus i'm the friend that doesn't know shit & hurts people.
when it comes down to family, no one said i had to love you. fuck off really. you think i really love you cus we share the same blood? hellnawh. earn my love. earn my respect. nuff said.
i wish there was something i could do. but honestly, what can i do? i'm a fuck up. i fuck up EVERYTHING. it's always my fault. i can't believe my mother gave birth to such a fucked up person.
juss another day in the life of jenny..
-jenn-tacular;
"I don't ask for much, but I fucked up. I know I fucked up, I admit I fucked up but everyone fuck up."
-Lil Wayne
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