Juss Writing. [032710]

i won't list names. but they should know who they are.
if i put a blank in this is cus i don't want their business all out there.
you guys understand right?

i wrote this on march 25th. in the shower.

remember how we used to be?
together happily when you started talking in january.
you were like drake, saying i was the best you ever had.
said everyday without me was always bad.
you said i love you, was this real?
did you really feel the way i feel?
then you went out with her, the first time you hurt me.
cried so much told myself it wasn't meant to be.
stopped talking, didn't wanna hear from you.
cus you were so happy with her, what could i do?
then you guys break up, you come running back.
can't believe you reeled me back in, juss like that.
finally went out in the month of july.
but i felt things go downhill, then 2 weeks flew by.
said you couldn't do it, hoped i understand.
i said i wouldn't cry, but you weren't my man.
it didn't hurt as much that time, i expected it really.
like i said, we weren't meant to be together clearly.
2 weeks after, a new girl again.
what could i say? to you she was a perfect 10.
you guys ended, came running back once more.
then again i felt my heart tore.
but a month or so later, a new girl, another.
________ was her name, a pretty face like no other.
i told you she wasn't your type but who was i to judge?
ehh, maybe it ws cus i still held a grudge.
recently you guys broke up, it didn't work out.
am i juss a rebound? apparently that's what it was about.
you said you forgot what love was.
but said i could remind you cus.
in your heart i was your unofficial girl outta all the girls.
always had a smile that shined brighter than pearls.
you even thought of having kids.
thought we'd last forever, at least i thought we did.
but how can i keep up when all i do is suffer.
i know pretty soon you're gonna find another "lover."
i guess it's the distance that's keeping us from us.
cus of you i can't love, all i do is lust.
i always think back to the night of march 23rd.
i poured out my feelings & you heard.
what i said but it didn't sink into your head.
at least it didn't seem like it, maybe it did.
i hate how you act like nothing happened.
you were always in demand, always the captain.
i'd listen cus you had me sprung like t-pain.
but everything that's happened has happened in vain.
but today's the 25th of mach, morning of the 26th, 2010.
if you asked i wouldn't start over again.
cus i'm not putting up with the tears & heartache.
i don't wanna keep smiling smiles of the fake.
cus i'm still wounded to this day.
everything juss went the wrong way.

-jenn-tacular;

"Have you ever wondered, why I always keep coming back for more?"

-ATB