Onto The Next One. [093010]

"i'm so confused, i don't know what to do.
but i gotta be a woman, gotta get over you." -mya.

she couldn't say it any better.. love at such a young age is absolutely something that shouldn't be tampered with. it scars you for life cus you're so delicate & fragile. i think i juss need time to get back what's mine & by that i mean my effort & feelings, you know, those nonrenewable resources. love's like glass, beautiful if seen in the right angle. fragile if you drop it, might end up breaking. fixable yes, but never the same.

i really don't know what to say.. i hate getting played. it's one of those things in life though that you have to experience. after this situation, all i can say is "onto the next one." what else can i do? what else is life gonna allow me to do? i'm not gonna mope around & waste my time for some guy who isn't even gonna appreciate the tears that fall down from my eyes. i need to stop trying to be like society & stop being "co-dependent." i need to be independent & depend on no one but myself. i gotta stop looking for this so called love.. maybe i'm in love with the idea of being in love.

-jenn-tacular;

"They told me never fall in love it never works out in your favor. You're way too young & that's juss human nature."

-Mac Miller

Another Day, Another Birthday. [090510]

so today my brother turned 7. i hadn't gotten that pissed in a long ass time! but let's not talk about my day yeah? it'll juss make me mad. like you know. when you get so mad you cry? yeah.

lately i've been trying to sort out my emotions & feelings for someone.. it's hard to think that you can't have everything you want & it's hard to think that you can't control your emotions. imagine if you could, someone likes you, you don't like em but you COULD like em & then bam. you guys like each other. happily ever after, the end. how beautiful right? but sadly, reality doesn't work that way.. like i say, "the mind doesn't control the emotions of the heart, for the emotions of the heart are uncontrollable." it's true right? you can't THINK you love someone, you either do or you don't.. that's the way i see it.

you know what else sucks? not being able to see the person you like as often as you'd want to.. it's like, you guys are both busy. fuck, who knows if the other person is even interested? ugh. so many thoughts going on right now.

"Give my love to no one else."

-Wale