seein' all the valentine's stuff yesterday at school made me kinda sick, it's bad enough that i'm jealous of people who are capable to love, but havin' them show off as well made me juss wanna take all that stuff & burn it. all the huge 'i love you' bears & all the flowers & chocolates. it's not like i'ma have a valentine this year. i never so why should i look forward to it? at least chinese new year's is tmrw. money is all i'm lookin' forward to righ now. juss the money i guess.
& plus the fact that i'm so frustrated at the world. everything i come in contact with pisses me off in way or another. sometimes people can't even understand the most simplest shit that i say & it makes me mad. i guess i'm frustrated from being frustrated. uhm.. did that make sense?
& then there's all these guys that are juss bringin' me down. unintentionally of course. but still it's tirin' havin' to drag them around too, i can't sleep well & that's all that's ever on my mind, juss all those guys, & yes i'm aware that it makes me sound like a hoe, but i call it keepin' my options open. sometimes i wish guys weren't so hard to figure out, like a 1000 piece puzzle, i got some pieces connected, but most of em aren't.
also, why does everyone's gf have a problem with me? what the fuck did i ever do to them? i never did shit & they're all over here talkin' shit about me, throwin' me dirty looks, all cus i talk to their man? i don't even talk to them in that way so i don't see why they trippin' & callin' me a damn hoe or bitch. i'm tired of havin' problems with females that i never did anythin' to.
all these things causin' me stress. friends, family, school, guys. i guess it's juss my lifestyle to be busy & occupied & stressed. i juss wanna go cry.
-jenn-tacular;
"How can something so familiar be so strange?"
-Timbaland
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